Dating……
After the failed attempt on one dating website, I tried a
different one. I had heard a lot of
people make fun of it but, I tried anyway.
Christian Mingle (CM). All I
really wanted to do was meet someone for coffee! Within 3 days I had 100+ men
looking at my profile. It was wild. They
all lived within 2 hours of me and a few of them actually had sent some form of
communication! This was blowing my mind!
I chatted with a few guys and emailed others but, still no coffee!
About the 4th week on CM, I had a comment on a
photo I had posted from the Summer Trip adventure of the ropes challenge
course! Someone named “Firerelated” wanted to know if that was me in the
picture! My first response…Of
course! I responded nicely and got “I
did that in the Marines”. My first
thought was…”this guy is full of himself”. We started chatting online and
within 45 minutes we were talking on the phone! I soon realized that he was not
full of himself but yet, a really nice guy. We have talked/texted multiple times a day, everyday, since then!
His name is Mike. He is from Pontotoc, MS. He is a former Baptist Minister. He is a
divorcee and his church released him because of his marital status. He is also
a firefighter. This is his main job
now. He works in Blue Springs, MS at
Toyota in the Fire Dept there and moonlights at the Pontotoc and Tupelo Fire Departments. He and I have hit it off quite nicely and
quickly! He is everything on “my list”
and more. He has been to church with us
multiple times and is getting to know some people at our church. He loves our Methodist church!! MayMo and
Carter really like him! When he is in town-every 3rd day or so-we
drag him wherever we go!
He and I have both been through some rough times. We respect and support each others’
situations. He has a fantastic personality and loves to live life to the
fullest! Those of you on Facebook have
seen pictures and get ready to see more of him in the future!
For those of you that are wondering how I could even
possibly fathom to move on….Mike and I had been going out for a few weeks and I
was really liking him! A part of me was
just not sure if I could let go 100% and allow myself to have true feelings for
someone else. And then, out of the blue,
there was my answer. The 1st
Sunday in November is All Saints Day in the Methodist and other churches. I did not realize it was this particular
day. As I sat in my regular spot and
looked at the bulletin, I saw what day it was.
The names of church members that have passed in the past year are read
aloud and a candle is lit in their memory.
I remember last year, and it was a tough day. As the service started, the worship leader
started singing the song that was playing in the room the moment that Jeff
died. (The worship leader is the singer
and songwriter for the song) I held my composure and just sat quietly. As I sat there, I felt a peace and heard
these words, “It is ok to completely release Jeff and to move on. Go with this man, he is a good man.” I know the
Holy Spirit was speaking to me! I have never had that happen! At that moment, I felt a total and complete
peace and freedom and nudging to fully move forward with my relationship with
Mike. Jeff will always be a part of my
heart, my personality and of who God molded me to be. I will never forget him but, it is time to
move forward.